Track 1

The first thing we made for this project. Still in North Hollywood, I produced and recorded this myself- and we were gonna redo it entirely before my hard drive crashed and I lost the session. 19 year old Ari, that's what this feels like to me.

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(letter in my hand i’m giving you

tell me what you think you’re living through

tryna make it good i’m trying

i could never feel that difference now

make it okay can we stay good

letter in my hand i’m livid

you try to make plans i’m giving you time

to make sense of yourself now)

*my boo

that’s a weird nickname*

i want to give myself to someone who will hug me

even when it’s my fault

who can be careful with the way they say they love me

after several months apart

why do we lie about forever

you make it easy to believe

i think i left you with my sweater

will you still wear it when you sleep

cover up both my eyes

now i can’t see you right

but your hands feel warmer here than by my side

if i undo the bind

watch as you change your mind

tell me i’m not your friend

tell me i’m wasted time